So, I signed up to do the A to Z Challenge that starts this week. Or at least I think I did. I commented on the page that I wanted to but I didn’t get a reply or an email that said anything. And I can’t find my name on the list, which has grown incredibly long, and if I don’t know if I was added, then I don’t know where to look, and it could take me hours to find myself. Then, I printed the rules and I got even more confused. I have to visit the blogs of the 5 people under my name daily, but I don’t know where my name is. I have to display my number of followers, which I think I have but I am not sure. And I have to disable the two step authentication for posting, which I don’t think I have anyway. But I am not sure. I have to select a category for my blog, which I assume would be miscellaneous. Or writing. Maybe personal. Some days it could be humor. (Do you see the problem I am having?) Then, I noticed they recommend and would prefer you choose a theme and base your blog posts off of a theme.
I don’t do themes. If I did, my blog would be about …..I don’t know, because I don’t do themes. My brain does not work in categories or boxes. I color outside of the lines. I make messes. I am a train of thought thinker. I start speaking mid sentence. I wake up and continue a thought from the night before. You get the picture. It would become work and that is not what I want this to be. This is me growing and learning. I know writing every day teaches you, and makes you a better writer, and I am doing that, even if it is not all posted here. (You should be grateful for that! ) And yes, I understand the other benefit of doing one of these challenges is to help bring readers to your blog, but I think I am okay without that too. No, it’s not that I don’t want readers. I am thrilled to have all 38 of you with me. Humbled, blessed, happy beyond belief. But I like that you all chose to be here. You found me, stumbled upon my blog, sat in a comfy chair and stayed. If I could make a big pot of coffee for you all, I would. But do I want a bunch of readers to click follow just because they are obligated to do so? No, my writing feels more personal than that.
I am sure I am worrying for nothing, because I do that too. I am sure it would be fine, and it would be fun and I would not be judged on my theme or what have you. But why worry? I don’t think this is for me. I want it to be. Maybe someday. But not today.
No, I think I will pass on this one. Best of luck and have fun to all that are participating, I am excited to read what everyone writes, but I am bowing out. Sorry for any inconvenience, but um, nevermind.